So, My week has been beyond insane. Got an offer to have my poetry published but it comes with a sneaky caveat-one I'm not sure I want to take up. Plus I don't have a literary agent yet and if I sign contracts with the US publishers I could be stopping myself from being represented and published by a company in the UK. I have a lot of tough decisions to make and it has been total mayhem in my house of drama this week. I won't got into any boring detail about what has transpired-but let's just say it is really hard to love a certain sibling of mine when that sibling is behaving in a manner that makes me feel sad for them. I wish they could just take a step back and realize their behaviour is not only self-destructive but completely unhelpful. I'm trying really hard to not dislike them but they are not making my job any easier. I will only ever say this once-I love you brother of mine-but I really don't like you at all right now. You need to grow up and behave like a human being and then approach me, I am sick and tired of being accused and put down through e-mails-be a man-grow a set and F***ing use them. Otherwise this you and me-we're done.
So moving on from the poisonous influence my brother has over me at times, I am actually smiling a genuine behind the eyes smile. This is somewhat rare for me, I smile a lot but rarely does my whole body fall in sync and respond in kind. This week I have let go of a lot of ideals I had, sometimes the people you look up to fall very short and you find yourself becoming despondent due to it. I hate that my writing has been on suspension due to this, I can usually write no matter what kind of mood I am in, but I have been emotionally Fooked over this week and alas my muse left me wanting.
I made up one new phrase and one new word this week. Sheeky was a typo that now means having attitude and pulling it off in a sexy and empowering way.
Boob Flappage is for all those women out there who feel less than they should, stand tall and proud-do not be afraid to let others see you as you are. It doesn't mean you have a top with a flap in it that allows your boobs to be seen-although I can see how you would interrupt it that way-Alas it is not to be bourne!
I have spent a good proportion of the week getting to know a new friend Kate, she amazes me in some many ways, her strength, her kindness and her insane sense of humour. Kate I meant every word of that poem I wrote for you-and I'm really glad you loved it. You deserve all the wonderful things that life has to offer you and Congrats Again by the way. You are truly a force to be reckoned with, hope all is well in your world.
Sheena, I know you have had a crazy week at work and having just read your blogs-WRITE A NOVEL!!!!!! I'm gonna bug you about this endlessly-as I feel it would be a tragedy for the literary world to miss out on you-and frankly if I can get published than you really shouldn't have any problems either-seeing as your work is mind blowingly good!!! Smile S, for this is but the start of your journey and I friend will be with you every step of the way!
Well everyone, peace be with you. Prayers go out to MJ and his family at this sad time. Am gonna miss his music genius, it is truly a great loss that will be felt for years to come!
Sleep tight everyone,
Cleetus sends his best and also gives the Pirate Captain the finger-naughty Cleets-have got to keep a tighter rein on that crazy kitten.
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Thank you, my dear. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteWe've talked about the brother situation. You know my thoughts on this...I won't get into it again, because frankly, it just infuriates me.
As for the novel...It has been on my mind more and more. To the point that I'm thinking of getting a white board to start writing out my plot/characters/etc. Trust me, that is a big step for me. And you're a big part of that encouragement, so thank you again for that.
PS- Sheeky? Effing rules. Best definition ever.